Life is always changing. Time moves on and on…and with it growth and learning.
God is teaching me. And He smiles on me.
I started this blog five years ago with hopes to use it as a platform for ministry. It never got there for many reasons, but I wanted it to be something great. A place where I could share what God has and continues to teach me, particularly His love and our position in Him. A place where people could learn and relate to each other. A place where I could write and realize dreams of mine.
What it has turned into is a struggle. I want to be humble in what I write and share, but I struggle with pride, insignificance, perfectionism, and pleasing man. It sounds contradictory, I know. But in an effort to not be insecure I shift into a type of pride through perfection and the result is a lot of what I write comes across as very authoritative. I want to be seen by man and thought highly of, so in the past I’ve shared few struggles and made myself look very neat and pulled together…in many ways unapproachable.
That’s why over the last five years my posting has been quite sporadic, going from daily posts to once a month or so, from highly involved in other blogging communities to not at all. At times I’ve contemplated deleting this blog or just never posting again. My heart has been torn…I desire to write and share, but hate the sinful to desire to be made much of in and of myself. After tossing these things around for the last few months, this week I considered giving it up all over again saying it wasn’t a possibility in my life. But my husband challenged me to evaluate whether it was a God-honoring hobby and whether He would have me continue blogging here.
The answer is yes.
There is a “but clause” and this is it…
…be honest.
…be real.
…share life.
This is the new season. Real-life. Real confessions. Real struggles. Real Truth.
For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven: a time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted; a time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; a time to seek, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away; a time to tear, and a time to sew;a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; a time to love, and a time to hate;a time for war, and a time for peace. Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
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I was blessed by your honesty. I’m so glad you are not giving up on this blog. I have really been blessed by it and am so excited to follow along in your new season.